decisions, decision all of them RIGHT

Honestly, I've been thinking about my future a lot lately. I'm on the point in my life where I have to make some pretty huge decisions. I decided a lot of things a long time ago, but I still haven't decided about some major ones. Today, I was thinking about my future more than before and I actually decided what I'm going to do or at least try to do. Oh, who am I kidding if I set my mind to something, I will definitely do it. I'm stubborn and I don't give up like almost ever. I have a decision to make between being a translator and being a teacher. Next year I'll have to choose my major and I've been torn apart for so long now. I always thought that I am going to be someone who will travel a lot and who won't care if they have to move to other country or to other part of the world because of their job. Well I still kind off don't. But on the other side I also do. I really just want to have options and don't want to be tied down to one place. Everyone around me are telling me how good job as a teacher is, I think that is partly why I even considered that to be an option. I mean I like teaching and kids and all don't get me wrong, it wouldn't be the worst job to have. But I also want to travel and not to always be concerned that I am always there near my school in case that something pops up. I actually never wanted to be a teacher so much. I have friends who have and who really deserve that job more than I do. That's just something everyone around me expect me to be. When I say to them what I study their mind somehow goes to oooh you'll be a teacher then. My mind not so much. I am actually a bit disgusted when I hear that sentence. Hey, if I'm studying languages I have more opportunities than you could imagine, but no your mind goes to teaching immediately, really guys? Okay, sorry I'm pissed off, but this kind of things just make me angry. I'm even angry at myself, honestly, for even considering taking the easier path and listening to everyone who said that teaching is what I should or would do. Well, guess what people, you don't make my decisions, I do. Today, I decided why I most definitely won't be a teacher. I'm sorry to disappoint you people who think of me as a good teacher, I may be, but that's just not something that I see myself doing in the future and for living. I love teaching and sure I can always teach children without being their teacher, but I don't think that I'm ready to be a mom to 30 kids and more. I don't think I would be able to remember all of their names and I don't think I'd like interacting with other teachers. That's just not me. Don't get me wrong. I don't think less of teachers I admire them. I'm just not ready for so much kids in my life, when I don't even know if I want to have mine. I think that teaching job would just get me more against it and I don't want to disappoint someone with whom I'll be spending my eternity with. Honestly, when I was thinking about my future before, I never even considered this factor and right now it is kind of a huge one and I'm actually really glad it is because it made me think and make this big decision about my life. I am not going to be a teacher, at least I don't want to be. I think that's pretty clear now. I want to be a translator. Why? There are so many reasons and of course I'll tell you what they are a bit later. Firstly, I was so happy I get to have this option to choose in town I'm studying right now. I was really, really happy when they were opening translating department, how did I almost forget that. My eyes were so bright and I got so excited and then people brought me down, don't let people do that please, follow your dreams and that brightness in your eyes, you can be anything you want, people around you don't get to tell you who you are, you have to know who you are. I almost forgot that! I wanted to be a translator because that's the job you do when you're on the run. You can travel and do your job, you can be at home in bed and do your job, you can be anywhere and do this job. More importantly you can be anywhere and get paid. I love that part. I always wanted to travel and by doing that job I get to do exactly that. I get to travel with my computer by my side, what is more perfect? And I get to write and read and see what other people are thinking. My mind gets to be richer every day by new words, rhymes and new challenges. I almost forgot how good that feels, but I remembered today when I was thinking about everything so deeply and thoroughly. I still can teach kids on the side and earn money doing that and doing this job I can save money to finish a course for touristic guide. Something I always dreamed of doing. Talking non stop about things that are around me is my thing anyway. There is still a huge factor that got me thinking today. That's the one I never thought I would consider. My love interest. For the first time in my life I think I'm ready to have something meaningful and he was talking about future so much that it got me thinking too. If I am to plan a future with him. Teacher is definitely not my call. He lives in such a small village that I don't think there will be a school there anymore if and when I move there. I certainly am not girl material who will sit at home and wait for a husband to earn our living. No way hose! And by doing translations I will be able to do so much from home if I ever decide to have a family and I will get to be with him. This factor is maybe the silliest of them all, but it is the main one why I started thinking about everything. Even if nothing works out with this guy, at least I know what I want now. To travel around certainly wouldn't be possible with teaching job and that was my dream since I can remember who I am. I just wanted to point out t everyone don't give up your dreams because everyone around you say so, don't listen to someone who is not you, you can do anything you set your mind to. Follow your dreams, don't make a mistake of adjusting to just anything. You are special and you know best what you want and what is good for you. If you let everyone around you decide your life, you'll regret it so much. Don't let that happen. I almost did. But I'm really glad I didn't, because I know that I would feel like shit doing something I'd be forced to do.